最终

你把你的将来，建立在我的痛苦上。

thing from myself...

i just realize that i depend on people too much.... i will become more stupid... cos my brain does not work... hahahaa... really stupid me...

Success~~

Success is not about money,power,fame....

Success is waking up the morning, so excited about what you have to do, that you literally fly out the door....

It's getting to work with people you love...

Success is connecting with world and making people feel...

It's finding a way to bind together people who have nothing in common but a dream..

It's falling asleep at night... knowing you did the best job you could...

Success is joy and freedom and friendship.

And success is LOVE.

UK weather....

Today, i went to library for my assignment. I spent about three and half hour in library

(FB, assignment, msn, searching detail... etc). I feel quite tired after i finished what should finish.

While i was going lonely to jameson home, felt the weather is cold. Suddently asking myself.

so long, what i have learned past few month ago...

For sure, i'm more understand myself... by looking in miroor angle...

it reflected... what am i thinking...selfishness.... don't care what the world think about me...

i never thought... inside me.. that selfishness brought a suffering time to my beloved...

and also misunderstand "love" meaning... i thought that was a love for me to u...

just realise.... it's not workable... i keep don't care the world...

what am i here for? maybe it's looking clear what am i or other people....

maybe continue......

Wake up..

she is really changed.. juz bcos i'm not bside her... when she happy, i'm her bf.. when she is unhappy.. i'm nothing... really.. the feel sticking with me.. strongly. " i'm giving u chance" "i dont't see guy nvr ml with a naked gal" sorry i don't trust u. it's really hurt. i still can last how long?? i also duno.. i been being emotional.. like a gal. i'm feeling shame... i tot nvr give up would be good for us... now.. i have seen i'm changing... i feel suffering... friend and family is more near u.. i'm not important to u any more. cos i'm not beside u...

My heart.

i'm not used to it. seem like your life start busy. seem like careless about me. actually everyday i also waiting for u to webcam. but u want help ur mother la... then yam cha with fren la. i feel very piss off and dissapointed. yea.. do what u wan to do.. that's is me is think for u. at the same time.. did u think about me? i miss u a lot alot alot. but the situation wasn't like urself who i really like. last time u will put down everything then talk to me.. now not any more. i really hate myself. being weak... i really can't stand myself being weak.... i really stupid...a stupid guy.

Stronger.

I'm happy that i become stronger than myself in history. because what u did that i can see this world clearly. although step is scary, but now me.. will avoid any more. will not scare for losing any thing any more.